Z is for Zigzag

 

                  

Twenty-six letters later, I’ve found myself looking back as much as I’m looking forward.

When I started this A-Z series, I thought of it as a simple exercise, one letter at a time. A way to reflect on life through small pieces of the alphabet. What I didn’t expect was how much it would feel like retracing the path behind me. That path has never been exactly straight.

Z is for Zigzag

Life rarely moves in neat, orderly lines the way the alphabet does. It bends, it doubles back. It pauses in places you never expected to stay so long.

Some letters held joy. Some held lessons I learned the hard way. Some carried quiet moments I might have missed if I hadn’t stopped long enough to name them.

Looking back I can see the story wasn’t built from the big milestones alone. It was shaped by resilience when things were uncertain, patience when plans unraveled, quiet when life felt loud, vulnerability when telling the truth felt uncomfortable, and wisdom that only comes from living long enough to know what really matters.

Each letter was its own small marker along the road. Not a straight road, a zigzag.

There have been seasons when my faith felt steady and seasons where it felt like learning to breathe again, one slow inhale and exhale at a time. There were moments of stillness and others when perseverance was the only thing holding the day together. But the beauty of the zigzag path is this, even when it feels like you’re wandering, you are still moving forward. Maybe that’s what this series has really been about, not perfection or tidy answers. Just a life lived honestly one letter, one lesson, one small glimpse of grace at a time.

The alphabet may end with Z, but the story doesn’t. I will continue to write, it helps me sort my thoughts and feelings and ease my stress. There are many things of my past I haven’t written yet, and lessons of the present and future that I will experience and learn from, which will likely keep me writing. I know there will continue to be moments where God will quietly show up in places I don’t expect. 

If the road ahead continues to zigzag, that’s okay… God is the one who will make my paths straight.


“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”~Proverbs 3:5-6

“The heart of man plans his way, but the lord establishes his steps.” ~Proverbs 16:9

Thank you for taking this journey with me. I hope if anything, my experiences have others who have had similar struggles or blessings they could relate to. If you have any suggestions on what I should write about, please share. 

Be Blessed ~ Sheila


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