Rolling Toward New Blessings


Yesterday, Mike’s new wheelchair arrived. It’s hard to accept that my husband’s disease has progressed to the point where he now needs a wheelchair more and more. He has fought for so long to not lose his ability to walk and he continues to fight. He has used a cane for years and has pretty much traded that in for a rolling walker, especially since he broke his back last January. It’s hard to accept just another stage in the progression of his Ankylosing Spondylitis and all the other health issues he is afflicted with. It’s just another reminder of how much has changed and how unpredictable life’s path can be. I’ve shed many tears and grieved over the loss of the way things used to be or how I hoped they would be presently.

However, In the midst of the sadness, God has been opening my eyes to continue to see the blessings in all of it. A blessing in this wheelchair is that we can possibly start doing things again. For so long we have stopped doing the things we love together because walking is too painful and too exhausting for him. Little by little our world has shrunk. To admit and make the decision to get the wheelchair felt like defeat at first, like just another thing his illness has taken away, but now I see hope that it may actually be giving us something back.

Because of this chair, we can go places together again. The wheelchair isn’t a sign of defeat after all or a sign of weakness, it’s a reminder that God always makes a way, even when the path looks different from what we planned.

Sometimes his blessings don’t come wrapped in the form we expect. Sometimes, like now, they come rolling in on four wheels, carrying us into a new chapter where happiness looks different, but still exists.

I am learning that faith isn’t just believing in healing, but trusting God in the journey.

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” - 2 Corinthians 12:9

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  1. Michael LemieuxOctober 22, 2025 at 12:30 PM

    All I know is I'm going to Canobie and Deerfield next year. 😊

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