Vacation… What vacation? An attitude of gratitude!



Mike came home Monday afternoon from his 29 day stay in the hospital. So far he is doing ok. Still weak of course and in quite a bit of pain, as his back is still healing from the 2 fractures. I am exhausted to say the least. I’ve been working 6-7 hours everyday of “vacation” from my first job, coming home, cooking, dishes, laundry, grocery shopping, making Oscar’s food, waiting on Mike, planning a renal/diabetic menu for the week. This morning I packed his dialysis bag, and a renal friendly snack so he’d be good to go when his ride got there. Tomorrow my day will be a 10 hour work day and then babysitting two of the grandkids (which is a treat). I should get home around 11pm. I will make Mike’s meals before I leave for work in the morning. Saturday is my day to take him to and from dialysis. Again I am exhausted, however, this is not me complaining. I would much rather be exhausted than widowed. 

This has been a very tough month both physically and mentally, but I am so grateful that God allowed Mike to stay here with me on earth for awhile longer. I am grateful that God has given me the health and strength to keep working and doing all that needs to be done. I have Hemolytic anemia which had been brutal months ago, but my numbers have been better for the last 2-3 months, just in the nick of time.

 I am so grateful for our “village” who have volunteered to give him rides so I don’t have to miss work. To check on him when I can’t. For visits to keep his mind occupied. For those who have sent cards and well wishes, texts and calls to check on us and especially for all the prayer. There is no doubt that it is the prayer that has gotten us on the road to recovery.

I realize this Blog entry is very similar to others I have written as well as Face Book posts, but I just want people to know how grateful we truly are for the out pouring of support, it means so much.

Some days I feel similar to Job (in the Bible) who endured many trials and tests, but like Job, I realize that God is sovereign over our suffering. God is faithful. God has never failed us and although we may never understand why some people appear to have more trials than others, we know God is with us through every step of every day, through every health scare, surgery, pain, roof leak, broken back, ambulance and medical bills. He loves us, he is faithful and he provides. 

Matthew 6:26 says, "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?". 

 


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