This morning when I drove to work, it was raining, chilly, and dark. I felt like it was the middle of the night. I wished more than anything I could go back home, get in some warm pajamas and stay in bed watching predictable, same-plot, Christmas movies. Here it is, 1 day before Halloween and I have to admit, I did start watching Christmas movies a week or so ago. It seems that I want to watch them earlier and earlier each year. This made me start thinking, why is it so many of us like these cheesy movies? I mean we know nine out of ten times it’s going to be a guy or girl going back to their old hometown, they are either widowed and have a kid who wants another parent or they need to save the family business. Usually, as soon as the characters realize they have feelings for each other, one of them finds out that the other is working for a big corporation and trying to buy the other’s family business and tear it down for a multimillion-dollar complex of some sort. Of course, by the ver...

At the young age of 19, I became a mother, although the age and inexperience set me up for years of struggle, I felt blessed with the gift of being a mom. I never truly knew what it felt like to love someone unconditionally, but this perfect, blue eyed, beautiful little girl that God gifted me, taught me what loving someone more than myself, was all about. She became the reason I breathed, the reason I smiled and, the reason I cried. My purpose on this earth was to be her mom.  Through the years, with much growth, changes, victories and mistakes, I was blessed with 3 more perfect babies. Why God chose me to be their mom is beyond me, but I am forever grateful that he did. All four of them deserved a better mother. I did the best I could at the time and my love for them never wavered but, I have made many mistakes and decisions that ultimately hurt them in one way or another, but God knew and knows that none of the mistakes that I’ve made, were to intentionally harm them in any way....

Why do I blog? For me the main reason is because I enjoy writing. The other reason is because I feel it helps process my thoughts. I don’t publish or share everything I write, but another goal of writing is to help others. I think sharing my thoughts and feelings of things can help others to see they are not alone in this crazy world. I hope to inspire others to write.  Expressing thoughts and feelings through journaling or blogging can be a good way to process stress, emotions and trauma. I find it to be a healthy form of self care. I personally don’t feel I suffer from depression or anxiety, although I have been diagnosed with OCD (see previous blog titled “we’re all a little weird”). It is a form of anxiety and can become crippling if not treated, but it’s a different form of anxiety. I am not in need of several different medications, or hospitalization. I do take the lowest dose of Zoloft to help manage the obsessive compulsive thoughts. Some people may think this is a personal...